Breakdown At The Disco
I just love a good breakdown.
(insert supportive breakdown items here…I certainly don’t want to force my chick flick binge watching on anyone)
Those that happen when you can least afford them.
When you thought you were on top of your shit.
But yet, your emotions led the dance and stepped on your toes the whole effin way.
What now? What happened to all our training on how to make these SOB’s history?
WHERE IS MY NAMASTE’?!?
Oh, it’s still there, waiting patiently and ever so Zen-like for its turn to re-emerge and blossom into beauty.
You see, in all our glory of self-improvement, organic veggies, and meditation magic, we forget just ever so slightly that we are, in fact, human. A weirdly satisfying mix of hormones, thoughts, and experiences all just waiting to shout out for a lil’ glory.
A bit of a drama queen, if you will.
And the best advice I can give? Put the crown on and act like you own the place. But as soon as you feel the weight upon your head, place the crown back up on the pedestal to remind you of who you now are and how far you’ve come from hangin’ out with assholes.
Why do I advise the drama queen aspect of self? Because if you did not, you would be denying what your true self, your instinct, is asking of you at that moment. And mindfulness is awareness in the moment.
But here’s the catch: Do not let your breakdown trickle down to others. They don’t deserve the wrath. You still control your actions, you still are in charge of those glorious words that come from your mouth.
Act human and have compassion for others.
Which leads me to the importance of safe words. Yes, they are beneficial for everyone, not just those who prefer shades of grey. These words are best established when you are in the “tool box” phase of figuring out what works for you when achieving your mindful mindset. Share them with your closest loved ones as a gentle and easy way of saying “give me space before I punch you in the face.” Use them.
Fine line reminder time.
Again, when you ever so slightly feel the weight of your drama queen crown upon your head, remove it. Get back into your tool box and find your Zen. Forgive yourself for your human emotion that led you astray. Crazy as it seems, these breakdowns are continued lessons that we all experience, gentle as a bull-in-a-china-shop reminders that we are all students in various stages of learning.
Put your Zen back in it’s rightful place…and give yourself thanks for listening to your instinct.